novelhk Chapter 439 It’s my fault
Chapter 439 It’s my fault
"You are wearing a dragon robe and enjoying the treatment of being second only to the emperor, but what about him? He was seriously injured because of you."
"If it weren't for you, how happy would he be after Lan Fengjiao's death? He is the prince of Zhishun Kingdom, what does he want? But he gave up everything that belonged to him and accompanied you to this Dashun Dynasty."
"What is waiting for him is this ending? And this ending is caused by you, because of you, do you know?"
As she spoke, Lan Qiuyan even started to roar.
It can be seen how much damage Murong Chen's fall caused to her.
"It's my fault for breaking my promise to you!" Chen Wanruo uttered these words after a long time.
"Are you happy now? Are you happy wearing this dragon robe?"
"If I say that I have never thought about wearing this dragon robe, would you believe it?" Chen Wanruo murmured as she looked at Lan Qiuyan.
When she asked this question, the bitterness in the corners of her mouth was very obvious.
Seeing Chen Wanruo like this, Lan Qiuyan was stunned.
For a moment, she didn't know why Chen Wanruo had such an expression.
In her eyes, becoming the king of a country, isn't this what she has always wanted to do?
Now that you have it, why do you have this expression?
"What? You look like you don't believe it?" Chen Wanruo spoke again.
This time, without waiting for Lan Qiuyan to answer, he continued:
"I am just an ordinary woman. I have tried hard to live a life of taking care of my husband and children in the backyard, but things don't go as planned. Life often has different tests. God made me meet him."
"Even though I met him, I never thought that I would end up like this with him. You envy me for wearing the dragon robe, but I envy you more for being able to do your favorite needlework in the mansion and often get together with your friends."
"I don't have any of these. If possible, I would rather never have known him. In this way, I would not have gone to war, and I would not have seen the people of this world."
"If I hadn't seen it, I wouldn't have known that these people were suffering terribly, nor that they were in dire straits, and I wouldn't have known that the barbarians had captured everyone in their village."
"I will not experience those cruel killings, nor will I fight with the barbarians on the battlefield..."
Having said this, Chen Wanruo sneered and continued:
"If I hadn't met him, I would have been just the owner of Tianxia Diyilou, the eldest daughter of the Chen family. I would have countless silver and endless banknotes to spend, and I could do whatever I wanted to do..."
"So, do you still think you should blame me? You say you are in pain, but who can understand my pain?"
"I will tell you that I am sorry, it is only because I broke my promise to you and did not protect him well, but you are not qualified to judge whether I am right or wrong."
After saying this, Chen Wanruo pointed to the western wing and continued:
"He is inside. If you want to have a good talk with him, just go in!"
After saying this, Lan Qiuyan didn't move for a long time.
She stood a few steps away from Chen Wanruo, just looking at her straight.
Look at this woman standing straight.
Thinking about what her father and elder brother had discussed in the mansion recently, Lan Qiuyan felt for the first time that this world seemed too cruel to her.
"I...what I said just now was a bit harsh, please don't take it as an offense!" After a long time, Lan Qiuyan said these words softly.
However, this time, Chen Wanruo did not respond.
Just like before, with his back to me.
Looking at this strong figure, Lan Qiuyan felt sad for the first time.
She really saw sadness in her back.
Her back was obviously very straight, but this back view made Lan Qiuyan feel lonely.
"If you feel it's hard, then let it go. Once you let it go, you will feel relaxed..." Lan Qiuyan suddenly said.
She didn't know why she said that, but after she said it, even she was surprised.
Then, as if he had thought of something, he felt relieved.
As a fellow woman, she actually began to sympathize with her.
She herself didn't even notice that the anger she had when she first came in had disappeared without a trace.
"Put it down? It's hard? Hehe..."
"Isn't it? If you feel tired, then let it go!"
"Do you know why he has been fighting for so many years? In your eyes, is it that he fought just for military merit? Or do you think Murong Chen needs those military merits to sustain himself?"
"If you really think so, then I can only tell you that you are wrong. You don't understand him. Even if you grew up together, you have never really understood him."
"He cares about the people of the Jin Dynasty. He feels sorry for the people just like I do. That's why he has been fighting all year round. He is also using his life to protect the people of the Jin Dynasty."
"What I am doing now is not only fulfilling my own wish, but also fulfilling his wish."
After hearing these words, Lan Qiuyan didn't move for a long time.
She just stood there stiffly, not moving.
Yes, how could she forget such an important thing?
Even if Chen Wanruo didn't do these things, he would do it, right?
So, what she said just now was more like a stab in the back to Chen Wanruo.
It would be better to say that it was also stabbing him in the body.
That dragon robe was never what they wanted. What they wanted was just peace in the world.
They are none other than the people of the Great Jin Dynasty.
It was also at this time that Lan Qiuyan seemed to suddenly understand why Murong Chen liked her.
At first, she thought Murong Chen might just like her heroic appearance on the battlefield.
But even if Murong Chen liked her for this reason, he could not compare to her in any way.
But at this moment she realized that she was not inferior to her in more than just this aspect.
Whether it is the mind, the pattern, the character, or the heart that cares about the world...
These are what she doesn't have and what she can't do.
She couldn't be as strong as her, nor could she reach the same heights as her, and she couldn't fight on the battlefield with him.
Even now, she still couldn't put on the dragon robe...
At this moment, she really felt that she had lost.
Lost on the word "love".
If she loved him deeply, she thought, she might do as she did and try her best to accomplish what he wanted.
After looking at the lonely figure, Lan Qiuyan said, "I'm sorry..."
Just like she did just now, the voice was very soft, just soft enough for her to hear.