novelhk Chapter 270 Regret for a Lifetime
Chapter 270 Regret for a Lifetime
"You didn't show affection when you should have, and now you're alienating me?"
The Zhao Fangyun in Zhao Fangyu's mind was an extremely vulgar little girl. Zhao Fangyu never expected that she would suddenly become so strong-willed at the last moment of her life.
I don’t know whether to say it’s courage or cowardice... After being frightened by Zhao Minshan, he actually didn’t go to her for help.
Zhao Fangyu held Zhao Fangyun's daughter in her arms with somewhat awkward movements. The child struggled and cried loudly in her arms. She adjusted her position several times, but none of them was as effective as Zhao Fangyun's patting the little girl's belly twice through the quilt.
The little girl was much more well-behaved. Her black grape-like eyes were filled with tears and she was sobbing.
Zhao Fangyu didn't know what to think, and said in a complicated tone: "I was the one who brought you out of the Song family, how could I not care about you?"
Zhao Fangyu didn't know how Zhao Fangyun returned to the Song family, but it was definitely related to that old man Zhao Minshan.
How could she willingly come back to the Song family, from which she had risked her life to escape?
It was nothing more than threats and inducements, and most likely Zhao Minshan mentioned Aunt Song.
Zhao Fangyun stared at Bao Jie'er. He used to be as stubborn as a hedgehog when she was little, but now, for the sake of his daughter, he called her "fourth sister" in a gentle and soft voice.
"Fourth sister, don't blame the family. It's my bad luck that I did something that brought shame to the family, such as divorce."
As soon as he finished speaking, Zhao Fangyu knew how that bastard Zhao Minshan had talked with Zhao Fangyun late into the night.
The little girl in his arms started crying again, and Zhao Fangyu's eyes inexplicably turned watery for some reason: "When I was little, I only thought you were hateful, but that's a thing of my childhood."
"On the way, Liuyao told me that since the Song family doesn't like Bao Jie'er, I will take Bao Jie'er back to the Zhao family."
There are cases where a child is taken back to be raised by his or her maternal grandparents after his or her mother dies.
Zhao Fangyun pursed his lips and shook his head, his tone revealing a hint of tears and the fragility of a dying man. The veins in his neck bulged as he spoke, obviously the result of his emotions reaching their extreme and being suppressed desperately.
She tightly grasped Zhao Fangyun's sleeves and looked at Zhao Fangyu pleadingly: "Fourth sister, I beg you, it was all my fault in the past, but please have pity on her and take her home!"
Zhao Fangyun's hands were cold, and his palms were sweaty. Zhao Fangyu took the initiative to hold these hands, as if he could also feel the vitality that was constantly dissipating.
Zhao Fangyun hadn't been able to control herself for long. Her eyes were already red and swollen from crying. Now she was even trying hard to speak. Her voice was intermittent and she was barely able to catch her breath. "I was taught badly by my father and aunt. My life is ruined. But Bao'er is still young. She can still be saved!"
She held Zhao Fangyu in her hand, but her eyes kept glancing at her own Bao Jie'er. When she looked back, her lips were bitten by herself, leaving a deep and light blood color:
"Tell her to study, and beat her if she doesn't study well. Don't let her experience the same thing as me in the future! She is not smart..., she can't distinguish between loyalty and treachery, and her whole life is ruined..."
Zhao Fangyun knew that among all her sisters, the most outstanding one was actually Zhao Fangyu. When she was a child, she was angry about why Zhao Fangyu was so powerful even though they were both born out of wedlock. Now she understood.
People still have to push themselves.
In a person's life, blessings are limited. If you enjoy all the blessings in the first half of your life as a girl, your life will be hard after that...
"She has to study, she has to know who is a good person, she can't... be like me. Even if she has to become a nun, she must not marry a useless bastard. She must not let the child I gave birth to with all my life... follow my old path..."
"Children are all debts... I, as a mother, have no ability, leaving her alone without anyone to rely on. Fourth sister... can you save her, please?"
Zhao Fangyun grabbed Zhao Fangyu's hand with great force. Zhao Fangyu looked at her pleading face with tears in her eyes and inexplicably thought of Aunt Qian again.
Zhao Fangyu held Zhao Fangyun's hand tightly back. She could feel that the moment she agreed, Zhao Fangyun's whole body relaxed, as if the breath that was supporting her was about to dissipate.
Zhao Fangyun forced herself to stuff two slices of ginseng into her mouth, and Zhao Fangyu put Baojie'er back in her arms.
Even though Zhao Fangyun didn't say it, Zhao Fangyu guessed that at the last moment, she wanted to be closer to Bao Jie'er.
This was the child she had risked her life to give birth to, how could she not love him? Otherwise, why would she beg her for Bao Jie'er and make so many plans?
Zhao Fangyu took her hand and touched Bao Jie'er's face. Bao Jie'er's face was covered with tears, and both of their fingertips were stained with salty wet traces: "If you are worried about your father, then I will do it."
Zhao Fangyu couldn't help but wonder, if she had taken closer care of him, would Zhao Fangyun have not died?
Zhao Fangyu imitated the way the eldest lady comforted her back then, and stroked Zhao Fangyun's hair gently, stroking the top of her head.
"Think about the children, think about Concubine Song. When I came here, I sent someone to pick up Concubine Song. You are so reluctant to leave her, can't you not see her for the last time?"
Zhao Fangyun shook his head slowly, the struggle in his eyes was self-evident: "It's my incompetence that makes Auntie still worry about me at this age."
She looked up, confused, as if she saw countless illusions in the air: "Fourth sister, if I had half the potential of Second sister, would I not live like this?"
Zhao Fangyu felt a chill on her face, and when she looked up, she found that her tears had fallen on Zhao Fangyun's face, mixing with her tears and slowly falling into the pattern on the brocade quilt.
Zhao Fangyu held the child aside and slowly placed the jade pendant that Zhao Fangyun had brought as a token of trust into Baojie'er's swaddling clothes.
"That's not the case. The fifth daughter of the Zhao family is immortal despite being ordinary."
"You're not stupid... You just haven't grown up yet."
Zhao Fangyun is not even eighteen years old this year. In the 21st century, he is still a minor!
But such a young child has become a mother and has experienced so many bad things.
Zhao Fangyun was broken and withered before he had the chance to grow up and live out his own life.
No matter how bad she is, she is a good mother and a good daughter.
She is not a bad person, and she is never at fault.
Zhao Fangyun laughed twice after hearing this. She thought that Zhao Fangyu must hate her. After all, she was not smart and always bullied others when she was a child. Counting all the things, she herself didn't know that she was so naughty when she was a child.
She always thought that she was the most well-behaved and lovable girl in her aunt's eyes.
"Fourth sister, from now on, you will be Baoer's godmother. With you around, I can...feel at ease."
She was not worried about the eldest lady, she was worried about Zhao Minshan.
Zhao Minshan was able to threaten her to return to the Song family by using Concubine Song that day, so how could he know that he would not use Concubine Song to threaten Baoer in the future?
Zhao Fangyu is the most solid supporter she can find for her child.
Zhao Fangyun actually had another object. She slowly took off a fish-shaped jade pendant from her neck. Perhaps because she was about to die, her short life flashed through her mind like a kaleidoscope.
She wears this jade pendant close to her body all year round. It was originally a pair, with the other half being thousands of miles away. Now when she takes it out, it still carries Zhao Fangyun's body temperature.
Obviously her favorite.
She raised her eyes and looked at Zhao Fangyu with eyes full of apology: "If one day, Second Sister comes back... Fourth Sister, please tell her that Xiaowu regrets it... Xiaowu..."
Before he could finish the rest of his words, the little girl at the end of the bed screamed in fright. Zhao Fangyu only felt the hand holding her tighten, and then he completely lost his strength.
Zhao Fangyun's eyes were still looking into the void, his snow-white hands loosely falling on his back, it was obvious that the person was dead.
Baojieer beside her seemed to sense something and immediately started crying again.